Bittersweet Life...

Sunday, September 16, 2007

i hate u. no matter wat u do, i hate you. i treasured u. i appreciated things u did for me, things that u went thru for me. but, no more. anything u do will just be something that u are forced to do, coz it's ur responsibility.

it's either u, or ur words, or ur another half who would ruin my day. who spoils the plan. who makes things diff for me and and my frens. do u really think u making my life better this way? do u really think u've educated me well, disciplining me in this manner would make me a better person? and do u think that i would change and actually abide to the things u say by criticising, deciding for me in ur bland taste of choice and not seeing in my point of view? think again.

and you. of all ppl. i really thought u would understand me. i thought i knew u. i'm wrong. very wrong. the hurt, pain, void in my voice which u couldnt sense. or u just choose to ignore. im not craving for fuckin attention. im just begging for some real affection; not everytime, only when i really need it. u do ur own things, but without a care about me. why do u leave me out? why do u make me bug u?

i dont like the way i am too, sometimes. im not like this becoz i want to be like this. look at the ppl ard me. the ones who i lived thru my 19yrs with. as much as i wanna change, ur attitude of not caring makes me wanna stay this way, as it's for the better.
i feel as though u're not happy with me, anymore.

i just wanna emigrate. to somewhere; someone who really knows me. or to a place where no cares about each other and still goes about in life happily and worry-free. just a fantasy, i guess.

im tied down with chains. i wanna break free. let me break free.

i have so much to say, but im afraid i cant put it in a right way. i need you, but u don't know when and don't understand why.

yes. it's all about I today. just let me be.

Smashed into pieces at 9/16/2007 01:33:00 PM